Rest day

My breakfast ~ vegetarian mee soto, mix vegetables and fried prawn with home made ice lemon tea. Oh... went to the market to buy ingredients to cook for dinner and I picked up $7 heeee that day I picked $2 heeee hope more to come uh hahahaha

Was feeling bored in the afternoon so took a bus to AMK hub. I bought some baby clothings from FOX. The shirt looks so smart heeee then I bought two whole suit and a donkey hugging a blanket. All for baby Joshua!

This was dinner ~ Tom yam chor bee hoon with squid, prawns, minced meat and sliced fish and a plate of tapioca leaves.

Wall E

Yesterday before work, Silly hubby and me went Mac and we ordered two sets of upsize meals and we finished it all! Hmmmm so delicious but expensive leh, almost $18.

Silly boy had filet O fish and mc wings...

I had a big mac and we both shared the two packets of large fries. Actually not a lot, I have space to eat some more!
Today was not very busy but I still need to stay till around 5pm before I went movie. I had two pairs of free tickets from our company. Nathan and Mirana have it as well and 3 of us went together to watch the movie.
Mirana brought her friend and Nathan and myself sat together. I gave up my pair of tickets to Alice and her bf. The whole theatre was filled up with familiar faces from our company.

"WALL E" and each "couple" got a packet of sweet popcorn and two pepsi!
About the movie~ I know Joshua enjoyed because he never stop moving throughout. For us uh, it's childish. NOt much of dialogue also, the whole movie the most frequent words are "EVA", "WALL E".... so those who do not understand English can also watch it!

Sunday

It was a rainy Sunday... this afternoon went Redstar restaurant to have dim sum. It was crowded and we queued for almost half an hour for our seats. Today the "big pau" was VERY BIG! 3 of us shared a big pau and of course we ordered a lot of other dim sum. I ate a lot and everything seems to be very delicious! We like the big pau!


These were the dinner dishes... lotus soup, stir fry pork with spring onions, brocolli with sliced fish and clams. Clams are Silly hubby's favourite and fish is me and pa's favourite!

Sien, tomorrow is another MONDAY......... really very sien!

Dinner

Ai yah, invited Jenna and Ronnie over for dinner but forgotten to take photo of what I cooked! Uhmmmmm........ hope they enjoyed it. I brewed peanut chicken legs soup, sambal ladies finger, stir fry chicken drumsticks with onions, mix mushrooms with pacific clams and steamed prawns.
I bought ingredents to cook for dinner tomorrow as well. Will do bak ku teh and stir fry bean sprouts with dou miao. Hmmmm really enjoy cooking, so much better than work!

My workplace theory

TO ASK FOR SOMETHING YOU ENTITLED
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YOU ARE CALCULATIVE

Those were the days...

I dont know why I can remember a lot of things of my childhood. Maybe I really enjoy the times being together with mum though she always has her expectations that sometimes irritates me. I remember we spend most of the times together because dad has to go work. She would arrange for cousins to come to our house to stay over, bring me out to meet her friends, bring me to grandparents house to spend my time with cousins and aunties/ uncles. Probably she does not want me to feel lonely.
Today I went to the market alone. Had my breakfast alone. I then realised how mum spent her last few months of her life. When we were not at home, she has to take care of herself, settle her breakfast, lunch and sometimes dinner alone if no one is available. When anyone is available to have dinner with her, she will get the ingredients to cook. With her weak health, she has to carry all the things on her own, climb the 3 storey stairs up and down, it's really hard on her. Now I am expecting, I get tired and breathless easily and I am sure she felt 100 times worst than me during that time. However, she insisted to do what she can for us.I asked myself, why didnt I spend more time with her?
I remember mum bought me a diary in one of the stationary shop in Redhill after we visited grandparents in year 1989. She told me to write it everyday so that next time I can recall a lot of things as I read. Back then I felt I have nothing to write and today as I read back, I realised everyday I wrote down what dishes I had for dinner. One said "Today mother cook soup, chicken and ladies finger. I like to eat ladies finger and mother always cook it because she knows I like." Most of the days was about what mother cooked for dinner, days when she brought me to Thomson for organ classes and days when she brought cousins and me to "fun world" in Parkway Parade. As I grew older, the word "mother" appeared lesser in the diary. I guess teenage was the hardest time to teach and control. The last page of diary was when I was seventeen. I quarrelled with my parents because I came home late after vacation work. I remembered how bad I was scolded by dad and mum added on. It was written "I just want to earn some money before my poly starts. Why are they so unreasonable??? I dont want to talk to them anymore!"
I told Nathan, now I want to talk to mum also no more chance.
Yesterday my neighbour's kids who is about 3 years old asked me "Where is auntie???" I said "Auntie not here..." he then asked again "Where auntie go???"........ I dont know how to answer him. Even a kid know how to ask about my mother but I havent even hear one of the very close relative ask about my mum. I dont understand how come one can be so close and then can just dont even bother after knowing that mum is sick. Ever since mum was diagnosed with cancer, they have been drifting away from us, not even a phone call. I never know cancer is contagious. I mean, it's up to individual, I am not petty over whatever just cannot understand the behaviour of people. Mum used to help them in the past and this is what she gets. Anyway, they are just the minority, in times of need, they just have to depend on themselves. I wouldnt bother as well.
I dont know why there are days where I feel really upset of losing mum. Sometimes just cant help thinking about the days where we spent together. Especially how she took care of me when I was young. Certain things she did not tell me or does not want to let me know but I actually knew a lot about it, I know she been through a lot and I always think I did not do enough. That day Silly hubby accidentally broke the bottle of oyster sauce that mum bought, I felt terribly sad and I cried staring at the bottle. I didnt blame him because I was the one who didnt keep it after used. I felt very heartache, the feeling was like losing something that you can never get it back anymore. It is ALWAYS the case, when you lose someone, then you realised how important this person is to you.

The week...

Wow, a week has passed. It's my rest day tomorrow and Sunday. Intended to cook tomorrow but yet to confirm.
Well, the week was... I remember Monday was terrible because boss was in bad mood. Got scolded 5 times... Nothing serious, very used to her Monday blues.
Tuesday went out dinner with Nathan and Alvin and pa for dinner at Geylang. We had 7 froglegs and porridge, marmite chicken, stir fried long beans, sambal mussels, cereal prawns and deer meat. Delicious! After dinner, we had durian for dessert along Geylang road.
Wednesday I remember was a busy evening. Beds, BEDS and BEDS wanted. The handphone rang non-stop asking for beds. Sigh... what's new?
Thurday a group of 15 of us went Kushinbu Japanese buffet at Suntec. It was a great because we seldom have a chance to have so many our us doing the same shift or on leave. Dinner was something usual but the gathering was great. It was a pre dinner gathering before Jasmine leave for her HMDP. Wish her all the best ;)

P/S: I was at the back behind Sis Ong (the yellow blouse lady wearing blue) heeee I was hiding lah, look so fat lah, dont want to take photo.
Today boss's face was black but she didnt scold anyone. Probably she was tired... I was very very sleepy too and practically falling asleep in the office at 3plus. I went off at 4plus without informing boss (anyway it's offical time to leave mah) and the moment I stepped home I "dashed" to the bed and ZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...... Silly hubby woke me up at 7pm and we went down for dinner. Dinner was great as well, we had vongole and lasagne at the nearby coffeeshop and he packed his favourite pizza home. Not expensive, vongole only cost $6 and lasagne $5 then 12inch pizza $12. Very satisfied!

Weekend...

National Day yesterday, cooked a few simple dishes (sambal ladies fingers, onions stirred fried chicken drumstick and seaweed meatball soup) and watched the NDP at home. Oh yeah, bought a pizza back home for supper and had it together with Silly hubby but forgotten to take a picture of it. It was from one of the stall called "Castel" in one of the coffee shop and it is good and cheap. One 12inch pizza with lots of ingredients only cost $12.

This is my lunch today, also nice and cheap. Yeah, vegetarian food again! I am addicted to the vegetarian food at the same coffee shop. I had laksa and a plate of vegetables with "prawns". YUMMY!
Going to work soon and tonight will see that irritating specimen... EEEEeeeeeeeeee

Mum's 49th day

This morning had a bowl of vegetarian mee soto and fried prawn and spring roll. Very delicious! Thereafter went bright hill to pray mum. It's her 49th day and most of the uncles and auntes turned up for the ritual for today.

Well, believe it or not... I had a conversion with mum after the ritual. She said "ma mi is leaving, you have to take care of yourself coz soon you will be a mother." She was in tears then I told her to take good care also... then she asked for Silly hubby. I went out to ask Silly hubby to come in and she held his hands "mama is leaving, you must take good care of Jiayi. I know she miss me a lot so you must spend more time with her, take good care of her eventhough you are always busy at work. Mama is leaving already..."

My tears flowed... after so long finally I get to talk to mum though I feel happy but at the same time really cant bear to see her go.

She left us... but to a better place without pain and sufferings.

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Dinner at Merchant Court with uncles and aunties

A big group of us (about 20) went dinner together. Have not been to Merchant Court for about a year. The standard is still quite good, there are cold appetisers like prawns, oysters, sashimi, and cooked food like sharks fin soup, fried hokkien mee, parankan food, crayfish and a lot more.

Durian dessert and black sesame and dumplings...

Yeah, this little gal again! She called me "bala yiyi" hahahaha.........

These few days

Monday~ first day of the week and I was on afternoon shift. Before I went to work, I went check up accompanied by Silly hubby (because he wants to see Joshua mah!)... Dr Tan scanned and estimated Joshua is about 600g now ;) yeah, he is growing bigger and stronger!

Tuesday~

Went to visit mum and bought her a vegetarian mee rebus and made her a hot almond drink. I am sure she will like it!

Wednesday~ Today was on morning shift. The ward was busy but manageable and luckily boss was in good mood. Nothing much happen but I did a lot of paper work. Managed to go home about 5pm to prepare dinner.

Used up the oyster sauce that mum left in the fridge then opened up a new one she bought earlier. I dont bear to throw things that she bought however I cant be keeping the bottle also so I took a picture as a remembrance. Is it a strange behaviour? I dont think so, what I can say is, I really miss her.......
I cooked mix mushrooms with vegetables and

Soup and clams...
These are the food for mum tonight... hope she "comes home" tonight........

Off day

Finally is my rest day today. Stayed at home the whole day because Silly hubby is working. Of course nothing much to do will think of cooking a good meal :)
Went to the market, then I saw the pig intestines. Mum used to cook it for me to eat coz I like it. She put it in the porridge or she will cook with wine and chicken which taste really good. I never try cooking intestines before so I bought some to try. I bought duck wings as well and thought of braising duck and pig intestines.
I also bought another vegetable which mum used to cook but I dont know what is it called. She always stir fry with garlic, chilli, tung hoon and dried shrimp.

As I was preparing the ingredients, I thought of mum again. She used to prepare good meals for us almost everyday and there were many effort put in for these cooking. She did not complain at all eventhough she was not in good health. I really miss her cooking...

These were the braised duck wings and intestines then the vegetables. It's nice........

Happy Nurses' Day!

Today is Nurses' day, hence there are lots of food prepared for the nurses and it was served by the CEO and the nurse managers!


There were a couple of stalls of food like the kebab, ice kachang, satay, vitagen, ice-cream, mee siam and many others.
The ward wasnt really busy today (fortunately!) but I still feel tired. Joshua is getting bigger and heavier!